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sometimes i get annoyed at my sporadic rushes of being happy and cheery and lively, annoyed at myself for drowning out other people's inner voices which we could hear if we kept quiet for long enough, the voices that actually matter. but then inner voices are meant to be private, although the need for privacy is often driven by some strange fear of not being loved enough or understood enough. inner voices are kinda irrational arent they, but perhaps rightly so

learnt a new word today! i seem to keep relearning it though cos i've definitely checked it up at least twice before. 'plangent' seems to have conflicting meanings though naturally that makes it more nuanced when used carefully.

apparently we've lost about 5000 words in our vocabulary in ten years
and at the rate we're going we'd really be saying doubleplusgood instead of a proper superlative